Do you know me? Well, you might..

Some of you will have shared in my most intimate moments. Some of you will even have seen a little more of me than perhaps you should have..

Some of you may have a picture of me in your mind… but always as part of someone else..

This is scary.. going it alone..

No, don’t get me wrong..everything is great..our marriage is perfect - or as close as it can be anyway..

But I wanted a little place of my own. Somewhere to bolt to.. Somewhere to retreat to. somewhere of my own. No agenda. No constraints. No expectations.

Actually, I have another blog - a real life blog - but I still can’t totally free myself from the constraints and boundaries that I myself have put in place there….

So why Sunshine?

Well, you may know me as something else and I am still she..

But like the Sunshine I am a fickle creature.

Sometimes I am hot..really hot.

Sometimes I am strong… really strong.

Sometimes I am weak and hardly show at all and

Sometimes you don’t see me for days as I hide behind the clouds..

Sometimes I can cheer you up when you are down.

Mostly I am there in the background, and you don’t even need to give me a thought..

But one thing is for sure, when I go down at night, I rise up again in the morning and that is certain. And when I rise I don’t know what each day will bring, but I carry with me the hope and expectation of a fresh and brand new day. And this is how I live my life.

I can’t say that I will be here every day. But when I am, it is with these hopes and expectations newly created and arisen and the reassurance that comes from knowing that I love and am loved. That is what makes me happy. This is my sunshine.

But when I do come here..

Let’s share..

Sunshine.

Sue.

Me.

Do you know me? Well, you just might… a little… but there is more………….

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