Archive for June, 2006


I wanted

Friday, June 23rd, 2006

I wanted not to have a shower this morning.

I wanted to keep you with me for as long as I could.

I wanted to feel the memory of your skin on mine.

I wanted to keep the indents and imprints of your love on my body.

I wanted to keep close to me the memory of the way your breath felt on my neck. The way your tongue felt on my lips, in my mouth.

I wanted to feel you on me.

I wanted to keep the smell of you, the taste of you with me.

I wanted to still feel your hands on my body. The way your fingers felt on me and in me. The feel of your nails on my back. Your palms on my shoulders. Your fingertips on my breasts.

I wanted to hold on to that hot, salty sweaty heat charged aroma of love and lust and sex and longing and wanting and finding and being sated.

I wanted to keep the hair that was tousled, matted by your hands and the bed and tangled as it dangled and swayed with the rhythyms and writhings of our bodies in motion.

I wanted to hold onto the sound of your breathing, merged with my whimpers and moans. The tiny little vocalisations of delight that escaped from you and the noisy explosions of pleasure that imploded from my every pore..

I wanted to remember the feeling of fire and ice, as my body and your body, molded and melted, as stiffness and softness joined together in a medly of delirious and delicious sensation. That feeling of bursting and thirsting and thrusting and grinding, culminating in that explosive crescendo of climax.

I wanted to remain naked and wear only the satisfied smile of the cat that got the cream.

But instead, I showered and dressed and brushed my hair, and left the house all spruced and fresh, taking with me only what I could keep locked away in my memory.

And a huge smile of course…

An invisible thread…

Friday, June 23rd, 2006

We are joined by an invisible golden thread.

I know that it is golden as the pure, refined glow of gold is the only colour it could be to do justice to its purpose. I know that it is invisible because no-one can see it.
I cannot see it - but I know that it is there.

It links us together.
It binds us together.
It holds us together.

As we go about our daily lives it keeps unfurling, unknotting, constantly holding and reminding.

It is with us when we are apart,
attached to each heart
a link in our separation.

It binds us together in times of closeness
a constant, comfortable tightness that
allows us to move freely and independently but continually reminding me where you are.

It holds us together in a tight knot of passion
looping and binding
searing and biting
pulling and tearing into our skin as the tightness increases and the loop is drawn in
and we become lassoed together,
bound together,
linked together,
held together,
the golden invisible thread
surrounding us like
a cacoon of silken web
totally enwrapped
totally enmeshed
totally one

and we remain like that,
bound,
linked
held

and then, the thread loosens slowly,
allowing for freedom of movement again
and
we remain joined,
by that invisible golden thread

that anchors my heart, my body, and my soul to you.

Finished (sort of)

Monday, June 19th, 2006

What would you say
If you could speak
My beautiful one?

Your face has seen so many things.

Would you speak of ancient riches, seen by you?
Would you mention the sparkling treasures surrounding you?
Would you whisper the magic spells of intoxication that emanate from you?

Day by day
You change
My beautiful one

Your change brings so many things

Sometimes you hide your face from the world
Sometimes your face is hidden from the world
Sometimes your face is revealed to the world

But all the time
You are there
My beautiful one

Solid, Silver
Rosy, Gold

Beams and shadows
Secrets told

What would you speak of?
What have you seen?

Where are you going?
Where have you been?

In your fullness, you smile
And, as each day passes,
Your form diminishes

And as every nocturnal sliver is etched away
And your form is changed
Day after day

Night by night
You evolve
My beautiful one.

Until there is nothing left to see,
And then, the inexorable march of time brings you back
To your gradual increasing form..

But night by night, your presence is felt
And your influence on tide and earth is increased
As your silver light grows and the darkness is ceased
And your orb of cratered fullness returns
To cast your mantle again
Over your sparkling, twinkling subjects..

And there you remain
So constant
In this ever changing world

My beautiful one..

The moon.

I just love this song…

Monday, June 19th, 2006

Four lads from our part of South Wales called The Automatic
I have taken the video off but if you want to see it, go HERE

I have started, can you finish?

Saturday, June 17th, 2006

Here is a snippit of some words that have been hovering around my brain for a day or two…. Son came bounding in on me and I lost the rest.. don’t you find that if you don’t get it all down at the time, those words can dissappear into the mist of oblivion and not come back?  I do, anyway..  I have a vague idea where I was going - it would beinteresting to see if anyone else thinks like me - actually I would feel most perplexed if there was anyone else in this world who thinks like me!!!
So, anyone fancy finishing it for me?

What would you say
If you could speak My beautiful one?

Your face has seen so many things.

Would you speak of ancient riches, seen by you?
Would you mention the sparkling treasures surrounding you?
Would you whisper the magic spells of intoxication that emanate from you?

Sunset

Thursday, June 15th, 2006

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Feet

Wednesday, June 14th, 2006

Angel posted a picture of her feet on her blog a day or two ago… I thought her’s were very neat and dainty.
I found out that my UK four and a half translates to USA sizes as a six and a half .

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Anyone know any vacancies for a Barney Rubble foot double?

Feeling Better now.

Monday, June 12th, 2006

I am back in the land of the living now, thank you……

Helen Keller once said “Keep your face to the sunshine, and then you cannot see the shadow”…

I am so pleased that the sun IS shining today!

Here I am again..

Sunday, June 11th, 2006

One of the biggest misnomers in the English language which I take exception to in the strongest terms.

Why do “they” refer to Migraine as a headache. I have head pain. Searing, biting, nausea inducing pain on the right side of my head, just above and over the eye. It feels like how it must feel like someone has rammed a red hot poker into my skull and are gyrating it back and forth.
I would do anything for an “ache” at this moment.. I really would.

The letter D

Saturday, June 10th, 2006

As I mentioned earlier, I had a challenge to complete. I was given the letter D and asked to think of 10 things beginning with this letter. Some Psychoanalyst would have great fun delving (now there is another D word!) into my mind wouldn’t they?

Delicate - a beautiful song by the Irish singer songwriter, Damien Rice - see music player.
Daughter - My sunshine. My blessing. My mini-me. Apparently she is like me to look at as folks often remark on the resemblence. My friend. My little encourager. As I said, my ray of sunshine. But I feel similarly blessed by our son.. but that is an S not a D isn’t it?
Dog - Our daft greyhound. He is a rescued dog. The whole litter were abandoned as puppies as they were not good enough to race despite being pedigree stock - he has the tattoos to prove this. He is the ideal pet for us. 5 minute bursts of intense speed while out on one of his two walks a day, combined with 23 hours of sleep or repose - a typical “30 mile and hour couch potato”.

Daffoldills - Bright yellow and reminds me of the sun.. our national flower and to me, along with lambs,their appearance, heralds with their joyful golden trumpets, the first triumphant sign that Spring is just around the corner.

Drowning - “not waving but drowing” - the title of a poem by Stevie Smith

Not Waving but Drowning
by Stevie Smith
Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.

Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he’s dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.

Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(Still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

Dagger - “Is this a dagger that I see before me, a handle towards my hand? Come let me clutch thee. I have thee not but see thee still in form as palpable as this which now I draw” - a quote (though I can’t say how literal it is after all these years) from Shakespeare’s Macbeth, which is lodged in the recesses of my memory and just leaped out like a released convict!!

Dreams - “are nothing more than wishes and a wish is just a dream, wish it would come true” - ah memories. I am back in 1970 something, staring at the huge picture of David Cassidy that shared pride of place with Donny Osmond on my bedroom wall. (Obviously I had a thing about big white smiles..lol) . I think that song was on the B side of the Puppy Dog song in the days of 45 singles - am I showing my age - yes! do I care? No! I am enjoying wallowing in the nostalgia! - actually that reminds me of a funny incident of when our teens were small. We showed son one of our old L.P Vinyl records. His eyes widened in wonder and he said, “Dad, how do you fit in the slot of the CD player”!!! - well, we though it was funny!

Da Doo - a few years ago, actually a good few years ago, it was our son’s favourite and only word. Everything was a Doh! He would point to a dog and say “Doh” - yes logical. He would point to a cat, horse sheep, gate, whatever and say “Doh”. He then was able to say two words, “Dat Doh” as in that dog, cat, horse, sheep, whatever. His cuddly/comfort item was a brown velveteen dog which he called “Dat Doh” which then got shortened to DaDoo. DaDoo had to go everywhere with him, and he would not sleep unless he had Dadoo’s long floppy ear between the fingers of one hand or in his mouth. From the ages of 11 months to 18 monts he had to be admitted to hospital on far too many occasions and he became understandably very attached to this particualr toy. The trauma we had when it had to go in the washing machine. The smellier the better as far as he was concerned. Nice freshly laundered Dadoo was better than no Dadoo though and you can imagine the distress if he went missing, as he inevitably would. He was usually found, stuffed behind something but one year, after our summer holidays, he went missing. We hunted high and low. Poor son had to go through cold turkey as he had to be dramatically deprived of his addiction. He did get over it. We told Son that Dadoo had enjoyed our holiday so much that he must have stayed in Devon. PS we found Dadoo the year after, stuffed at the bottom of a sleeping bag that had been put away the previous year after our camping holiday. We were only saying the other day that we had not seen him for some years now. I wonder where he disappeared to this time.
Dark - I used to be afraid of the dark and had to sleep with the light on. I now actually quite like the dark. I love to lay in the dark in our loft room, and as my eyes gradually adjust to the change, I start to see the thousands of stars that are framed by the rectangular skylight that we have just above our bed. Watching the stars, satellites and shooting stars is a wonderful way to drift off to sleep. (Shame it does not have the same effect if I wake up at 3 or 4 am though!

It also makes me think of a poem Ed wrote many years ago inspired by something said by his 5 year old nephew about something being “pink dark not black”. I wonder if I could persuade him to turf it out and blog it for you?

Dripping - just like the sound of this word. Makes me think of food. Big fat globs of pure Welsh golden yellow butter dripping off a tasty corn cob, or luscious fresh strawberries dipped into melted chocolate, dripping the hot sticky brown lava flow all over your fingers and down your chin. Yum Yum!

Well, that was fun. If anyone wants me to choose themselves a letter, then please let me know and I will allocate them one!

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